Well, I'm here in glorious Latin class. Just met with the T-shirt lady. Our T-shirt is coming in next week, and the design is awesome.
It also just dawned on me that the US is thoroughly screwed. Especially with Bush saying he's going to push through all the nominations that the Democratic Senate rejected. And resurrect the faith-based initiative. And put on an Easter Bunny suit and give it to Karl Rove across the desk in the Oval Office.
All right, not that last one.
Cooper [11:42]
Well, no Wurstfest for Cooper.
Apparently my parents aren't down with my driving to New Braunfels and back amongst the teeming, drunken, wouldbe Teutonic horde known to attend said festival. I donno. I kind of think I could handle it. It's not that hard to drive from New Braunfels to San Antonio.
Hope Erika won't be pissed.
And I have to call Mike. We're jamming to open the black box reading on Tuesday night. That should be fun. It's been too long since I jammed with Mike. Way too long.
You see, since I have Statistics class at 8.00 every morning, I can no longer play with him in the courtyard before school. Which means I can't play with him much. Which sucks, because I genuinely love this guy musically.
But we're getting together on Monday to jam like monkeys, so we'll record a bunch of stuff. It'll be fun! I'm pumped!
Cooper [19:36]
I think I've figured it out, and this makes me feel absolutely horrid.
I'm no longer in love with Nikki.
I don't like to think I'm so mutable in these matters, but I really can't justify saying that I love her anymore. This makes me sad.
It does remove a few ethical dilemmas, though.
Cooper [23:41]
So I went over to Sunil's house to work on this year's T-shirt for Latin Club. He's Treasurer. I'm President.
The shirt is based on the Fight Club soap logo, but with LATIN CLUB instead of FIGHT CLUB on the bar of soap. It's fun.
I had great fun trying to IM his wouldbe lovah 'wanna get it on?' under his screenname. Didn't work, but we had a fun fight on the keyboard.
Like physically, on the keyboard. Confused the hell out of all the people on his buddy list.
Cooper [22:04]
Today was somewhat nondescript. Yet I'll describe it.
I finished all of my Catullus translation for the week. That's nice. I think Laura's the only other one in the class who's finished with it.
I also recruited Certamen team members in Latin I classes. Hopefully it'll be a roaring good year for Lee Certamen.
I was invited to Wurstfest, that glorious annual sausage celebration in New Braunfels. I may go. Erika is going for certain, and perhaps Sunil and Sean. That'll be fun. I was also invited to see Fame as produced by Keystone students. I think I ought to make an appearance; the tide of my social life seems to be turning the Keystone direction recently.
And that, dear friends, is all. I'm going to go eat some ramen now.
Cooper [18:03]
Also, came across this on the site:
oral sex is blowin' in the wind
oral sex is inefficient
oral sex is greater if you or your partner has an untreated sexually transmitted infection such as gonorrhoea or syphilis
Cooper [20:38]
Upon Oisin's suggestion, I visited googlism.com.
The results:
andrew cooper is back
andrew cooper is without a doubt one of the best players
andrew cooper is probably the most improved wrestler so far this season and wrestling well
andrew cooper is giving people a rare chance to glimpse a group of nesting barn owls
andrew cooper is the first person to be sent home from the world
and the best one
andrew cooper is also vice
Cooper [20:34]
Had an interesting day.
Today Nikki broke up with me.
This is bad, but somewhat mitigated by the circumstances:
When I asked her out several weeks ago, she declined, explaining that she really needed to be alone and that she had her own shit to get together. She's still dealing with a lot of issues from a previous boyfriend (not issues with him, but, as she puts it, issues with 'reconstructing myself').
She came to me on Monday last (that's eight days ago) and told me that if I'd still have her, she'd be mine. I of course accepted.
Today, she told me that she'd done some thinking this weekend, and she realised she hadn't, indeed, worked it all out, and that she's still not ready to be in a relationship.
So I don't feel so bad, because I've had a while to get used to the idea of Nikki not being my girlfriend. And I don't feel betrayed, because it was only a week. We're all allowed to make mistakes, as long as we try to correct them. Breaking up with me was a correction of that mistake, so it doesn't hurt any more than it did before.
And Nikki's damn sweet and awesome: we had a last kiss. It was very long and very emotional--and then she bit my nose, the bitch!
*sigh*
It does suck to be in love with someone who's convinced she can't love anyone. Also, it sucks when you have this enormous sexual chemistry with that very same person.
So the day was bad a little bit because of that, but then after school I talked to Nikki for damn ever, and I think it's all happiness now. Like, the horrid drama is still there, but we're both secure and generally good with the world.
And April got into Richmond University in London. So she has no more college application crap to worry with (except how to pay for it, but she'll get scholarships out the wazzoo).
Cooper [18:20]
Oh, and for your edification:
Sunil: ill rape YOU into submission, BITAACH............AT MUNSA
Cooper: 'oh no, no, Mr. Moderator, Sir'
Sunil: thats rigght
Sunil: SIR
Sunil: ILL be LIKE NO BITCH YOUR OUT OF ORDER
Cooper [21:31]
Just got off the phone with April.
Apparently we're good now.
Weird.
And I found out today that I'm going to be Iraq in the Model United Nations San Antonio UN Environmental Programme room. Good stuff. I do so love being a whiny little bitch. The topics are Ecoterrorism and Sustainable Development, and I have killer arguments for both--which point all of the blame (for everything) solely to the US and Britain.
*smile*
Cooper [21:28]
So I found out more why April's angry.
Turns out she doesn't really give a flip about not calling, or she's forgiven me or something.
Today, she was talking with Ashley and me, and she called Ashley 'an innocent party'. I kind of raised an eyebrow; no-one noticed. Then she said to Ashley, 'This is why you don't get into EJ's car.' I winked at Ashley. Ashley smiled. April noticed and went off on me. She accused us of having some secret joke about how horrible her driving is (My dislike of April's driving is a wellknown fact, and it's never interfered with our friendship before.).
She told me that she saw my getting into EJ's car instead of hers on Halloween as a personal insult. This rather upsets me, because damn it, I had to ride with someone. Seems rather petty to be angry with me for riding with someone else, when we planned to meet up anyway. It was only supposed to be like a five-minute ride.
So I rather smoothly brought up the Ashley thing, not confrontationally, but instead very kindly and graciously. April told me that the differences between us--indeed, the only differences--were that a) Ashley couldn't have driven herself, so she had to ride with EJ and b) Ashley planned the whole time to trickortreat. I had told April that night that I didn't want to trickortreat, but that only meant I'd refrain from actually taking candy, that I'd walk with them, and that it would be effectively the same. Apparently this justifies all of the insults April has levelled at me. That I didn't collect candy.
*sigh*
She also reiterated her opinion that I'm motivated only by Nikki, which very much angers me, because I'm working very hard to remain me and because the fact that April holds the opinion probably is hurting Nikki's and my relationship (at the least, it's making me damn insecure).
On a lighter note, Sunil told Erika that he almost beat me bloody in chess. The resulting IM conversation:
Cooper: howdy
Erika: hey
Cooper: http://incaseoveritas.blogspot.com
Cooper: you will check this regularly.
Erika: why?
Cooper: it will be like manna for your hungry soul
Erika: heh, you're weblog is going to be like manna for my soul....how...interesting...
Cooper: yes
Cooper: it will sustain you until you can feed on the milk and honey of my raw lovin'
Erika: ah, how nice.
Erika: ok, so tell me again, why do i want to read this?
Cooper: hey, you want to hunger in the desert, that's your bisnass
Erika: i don't see how reading about how everyone thinks you're an ass could be beneficial to my soul...
Cooper: you're just unenlightened
Erika: so how was sarah's party? i hear sunil almost beat you drunk at chess
Cooper: what, that's dirty wrong
Cooper: I kicked his ass twice
Cooper: dirty
Cooper: raped him into submission
Erika: that's not what he says
Cooper: okeh, ask him who dirty resigned twice because he feared my big black megacock
Erika: what great, uh, details, andrew....thanks for sharing.
Cooper: any time
I suppose that's most of it.
Cooper [17:57]
At the party Saturday, I discovered that the intoxicated are, almost to a man, very very entranced by lions rampant and fleurs-de-lis against checks.
I wore one of my favourite vests that has that pattern on the back. Good stuff. I had like four people staring at my back for several hours straight while I played chess with and trounced soundly Sunil. The funny thing was their attempts to describe the pattern.
"Griffons."
[in very slurred speech] "Flooooordeeelick."
"Spanish-German-French-English."
"Cooper's one pan-European fellow." (Okeh, I 'fess: I said that one.)
"Dude."
"That rocks my socks."
"They're like little monkeys. And spears. On a spider web."
Cooper [15:52]
Evidently I forgot to put in the comment function. Here it is, or should be anyway.
Cooper [14:33]
Well, it's Sunday.
I had choir this morning. We sang a Pie Jesu in the 11.00 service. I planned to wake at 9.16, so as to be there for the 10.30 rehearsal.
Unfortunately, I went to bed at around 4.45, so I woke up at--you guessed it--10.58. Nonetheless, I made it to church at 11.16, quite in time to sing. I guess I'm just a hoss.
But I also unknowingly set off my house's burglar alarm when I left, so that's no fun. The cops came out. That's always a hassle.
I'm still upset about the whole April thing. But I have Catullus, integration by the method of partial fractions, and working on my new collection of epigrams to console me. Not to mention that I have to do all three or else I'll fail some classes.
Which reminds me: my chapbook is out. It's $3.50, so email me if you want one. That is, if anyone ever read this.
Cooper [14:05]
Oh yeah, and I changed the format. Not that anyone ever visited to see the old format, so you don't know that.
This is just a post to finalise that change.
Cooper [02:59]
Cooper has decided to actually use this space. It's going to be tough. He'll try to manage it.
Why the change of heart? you ask.
Angst. That greatest of all the facets of adolescence.
The story, as impartially as possible:
Halloween I go over to Paige's house. EJ's there. We're waiting on April, who's bringing Joe, Julia, and Ashley. They show up about half an hour late. Julia, EJ, Ashley, and I ride in EJ's car to the neighbourhood we've picked for trickortreating; April, Paige, and Joe take April's car. April has to drop off a package at the post office. We (in EJ's car) go to the neighbourhood. We're not sure exactly where in it we're to be, so we drive around for about half an hour, maybe more.
Julia gets hungry. EJ, being the responsive boyfriend, drives us to his house to get her food.
Meanwhile, April's car is driving around, looking for us, not finding us.
We get to EJ's house, feed Julia, and then April calls EJ's cell. She asks for Julia, whom she then tells off. EJ tries to call her back to invite her over and/or see what the new plans are. The call goes unanswered. Figuring that April's just not picking up, we decide to stay at EJ's house and just chill. Which we do. On EJ's trampoline. We have a very good cuddle with EJ's little brother. A very nice bonding time had by all.
It gets late; people need to go home. EJ drops Julia off, then Ashley, then me at Paige's house, where my car is. I notice that April's car is behind mine.
I go in. Paige tells me that April's keys are locked in her car. I ask to use the phone, figuring I'll be very late. April refuses. Paige finally relents. April proceeds to tell me off. I try to explain that we waited in the neighbourhood, that we tried to call her back, &c., but she tells me that I'm lying. Then tells me she has her keys and leaves. I talk to Paige about the situation; she seems to understand that I'm not a TOTAL ass.
On the next afternoon (Friday) I try to talk to April. Doesn't go so well. I try to apologise for not calling her earlier that I did while maintaining that it was a) not so big a deal, because we tried to correct it by inviting her over b) not entirely my fault, because Julia, Ashley, and EJ were there, too and c)mostly due to mechanical failure or negligence, not malice. She doesn't buy that I'm apolgising sincerely. I assume, fairly enough, that she's just too angry to hear what I'm saying and to accept that yes, I am sorry. She accuses me of losing myself entirely when I'm with EJ or Bryce (another friend) or Nikki (my girlfriend).
Nikki overhears this. She, too, fails to get that I'm, indeed, truly sorry. She tells me so, and so I realise that perhaps I didn't do the best job in communicating my apology. I go back to April and apologise again. She seems to accept it.
That night, we (Nikki, Paige, April, and I) go out for a movie. We end up not actually going to a movie, but instead getting Chinese and taking a walk together through Nikki's and Paige's neighbourhood. We make plans to see the movie tonight (Saturday) after the football game (which April and I have to attend to be honoured).
Today, I decided I didn't want to see a movie anyway, because I don't really like to go to the movies. Nikki decides she can't go out because she has too much homework. I mention my thoughts on changing plans to April before the game. She seems all right with it.
After the game, we go to Jim's (a local 24-hr. coffee shop). April gives Paige, Julia, and Adam all a ride. Sunil (another honoree) rides with me. We're having a nice little chat, when April brings up the movie thing. She says I owe her one to compensate for Halloween. I tell her I don't want to go to a movie. She accuses me of not wanting to go because Nikki isn't going. I try to tell her that I just don't like movies (rather, I like to heckle at movies, and if I can't, I have a bad time, and I know that April hates hecklers). She throws a creamer packages at my head--very hard; it hurt--and drags Julia, Paige, and Adam away from the table. Julia and Adam stick around for a little; April fumes in the car; Julia and Adam, though they realise I haven't done anything really wrong ('Cooper, you're not an ass'--Julia), have to go with April because she's their ride. Sunil seems very confused by April's treatment of me.
Sunil and I order fajita omelettes, eat them, then go to a party.
So the angst comes in here: April seems to have singled me out for her hatred, even though the Halloween thing was due to Julia and Ashley at least as much as to me. And I don't want anyone to think that I've lost myself in Nikki, because I haven't. That's been a problem in the past, but I really think I am remaining myself.
And I've maintained an absolute calmness of demeanour the whole time. I haven't insulted April; neither have I called her names; neither did I ever yell at her. She has done all of this, yet it seems that she has some right to this, whereas my selfcontrol makes me robotic and cold--therefore more of an ass.
*sigh*
Cooper [02:50]
